Can't Sleep

It happens to me often. I lay down, close my eyes and remain conscious for hours. It can happen for any number of reasons. I may think tonight is because my nose is stuffed. Or because I want to see the end of Hellboy but it's really because Lennon isn't home. I know she is safe at my mothers house but knowing one of my kids isn't under my roof keeps me on high alert. Now I know why my step father was always awake when I tried to sneek in at night. The truth was he never fell asleep. The two kids I have here at home are both sick. Even though every report from my mother has been she is having a great time I can't help but wonder, does she shares our cold? Is she having trouble sleeping? Did she eat her supper? I know these are frivolous concerns but she is my baby and it's hard to sleep without her here. I hope she dreams of me. I also hope I will have an opportunity to dream of her.